Tuesday, October 21, 2008
hello! i will officially be back on the 7TH OF DECEMBER!! can't wait to see everyone back home!!!! I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH I'M SORRY I DON'T KEEP IN CONTACT AS I SHOULD!! PLEASE REMEMBER I STILL LOVE YOU GUYS VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!! friends having a-levels i can't start to imagine what it's like for u guys right now but i'm praying hard from over here for u guys =) don't compromise your health for your exams alright it's not worth it! will post more soon! =) =) =) =)
Child of God;
5:58 AM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
yes i'm baaaccckk =) it feels good to be back! not that i actually have the time to be back but it's a GREAT form of procrastination if you ask me! my past month has been amazing and i've learnt so much. it's time to buckle down and study from now on unfortunately =( it's still annoying having to do my washing and cleaning and sometimes cooking in the middle of all this but it's stime i get used to it! i mean i'm already getting served dinner here i have no idea what it's gonna be like if i had to come home and cook dinner everyday! it would be horrible =( i mean i'm totally fine if i were a simple housewife (and i'm NOT saying that the job of a housewife is simple! trust me. i've watched ENOUGH operah to know better!) with my main priorities being cooking, cleaning and teaching the kids. aaahh what a good life. i mean i bet if i actually had time to cook i would form a passion for it! maybe even for cleaning the dishes but now it's just an extra chore on tp of everything else. ok enough of my complaining! =) school has been good. i'm really enjoying the stuff i'm learning and the annoying bits in math are finally over and done with! the harder essays are done (with not excellent results but hey.. it's done!) and now it's just about committing more time to my work. sorry to all the singapore kids out there who are slaving over As and therefore probably not even reading this but i love the way things are taught here and i love the stuff i'm studying.. not so excited about uni now but ahh that's 5 months away! i know the year's not over yet and the tough exams are only gonna be in november but i really have enjoyed this year and i wanna take time to tell my mom who may be reading this that i'm really really grateful to you for sending me here i couldn't have thought of a better solution! :D i actually love australia.. so much so that i'm really not so keen on going back to singapore anymore :P i mean i really wanna see my family and friends but i'd rather them all come here! i KNOW i'm gonna get really annoyed at singapore's regimented system of doing things and just how unfriendly everyone is. it really annoys me! esp after seeing how much better things could be if people just had a smile on their face! :P i know i always talk about God but i really can't help it He's been doing so many great things in my life i can't help but talk about it! :D I recently went to church camp in the country and i had an awesome time!! God spoke to me so clearly about some problems I was facing and two people prophesied (told me something about my future which God revealed to them) over me! The prophecies spoke so much hope into my life cause they talked about how God was gonna grow me without me having to DO anything but trust Hima nd how he was gonna use the least of me to impact and help others, that He will use me so that the birds of the air can come nest in my branches. So much more passion for God and the bible has just been growing in me and I've been learning so so so so much more and at the same time so so so much more humbled by the greatness of God. this past month I've seen His healing in church.. so many people have been healed of muscle problems and other injuries. infact my japanese friend, Natsuki who lives with me in the hostel and who i brought to church was healed of her muscle pull in her archeles tendant after we had prayed for her and now she's a happy and free ballerina our God is so great!
God has also been showing me just how much power work has had over my life. I fasted for 21 days from 2 hours of sleep in the morning (during which i usually study/ do homework) and just prayed instead. It was so amazing and slowly I came to realize how much i lived to study. even when i didn't need to study and i could relax i felt guilty for not studying. i couldn't enjoy any of my weekends cause i would be stressing over the amount of work i had due. but i learnt that however much studying is a priority here for me I cannot allow myself to let it control me, cannot allow myself to live for it, to please myself or even my parents. cause in the end it is still.. meaningless. it seems only an eternal cause is worth working for.. :P so in general life has been good! learning LOADS and hopefully growing up at last! :P love you all back home! missing you badly! will post again soon =)
Child of God;
2:12 AM
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
hello everyone who reads this i'm sure i love you very much and miss you very much as well! wow i have A LOT to catch up on eh?? haha! hmmm.. first let me put up some pictures that i took during my first term break when i went to williamstown =) so after this memorable trip my dad had the most hilarious dream in which he took bus 105 from the bus stop near out house and in like 15 mins he reached the train station which is near my hostel here in melbourne! then he go so excited cause he couldn't wait to call and tell me that he'd found a shortcut to my hostel and to school and he was thinking how much money we could save and how now i could come back everyday after school! hahaha! funny pops. hmmm.. i can put up pictures of some of my friends in melbourne so you can see them! These are my amazing hostel friends that have kept me sane these past few months! =) wow i don't know what to say. these past 6 months just zoomed past. i am learning a lot but really really slowly! God has been good. He's been so faithful!! so so faithful. so many blessings i've received! an amazing timetable great friends and His presence to keep me company in my loneliness and homesickness. but there are also many many pits just sitting there waiting for me to fall into. so many temptations in this country!! but yea God's just always keeping me strong! i'm sure i have alot more to say it's just it's really late and my brain isn't working and i'm still trying to comprehend why anybody would wanna read about my boring life! :P will talk more about my subjects and new found love for literature soon! [the mother beams proudly and secretly wishes that her youngest will follow in her footsteps. not gonna happen mom! sorry! :P] miss all of you so much! :D P.S is it just me or are the word verification thingies getting harder and harder to decipher?? argh.
ok so they're not the most amazing pictures cause they were taken with my phone! but it really was beautiful i just sat there and had the longest times of prayer and reflection that i've had in a lonnngg time. so peaceful! i was in williamstown to see my wonderful niece and nephew but i unfortunately don't have a picture with them!!! i think we only took photos with my niece's camera.. anyway wow i have so much to recap on!! term one went pretty well overall!! well studies wise anyway! i think i'm kinda getting used to staying alone now and doing my own washing and cooking and cleaning and all that jazz. well.. i wish it were jazz.. but it's more like heavy metal that keeps pounding and pounding and never seems to stop and no panadol can ever take the pain away!!! ok.. so maybe i'm not so used to it yet! :P i dunno i can't remember alot of happened guys so i'm gonna fast forward! so i went back to singapore!! yayyyy!! i was really really happy! i don't tihnk i realised how much i missed home until i got home. ok so i didn't miss the exxtreme levels of H2O in the air but i was so happy to see everyone again!! my FAMS. who i love so much and i miss so much!!! just hearing everyone on the phone from over here! so much comfort! i can be who i am at home. and my frienndddssss!!! i didn't get to see alot of people!! but i did get to see my really close ones who made time specially to see me even though they're having exams and stuff! i love you alll!!! special shoutout to my cell + some other random ppl from cluster: thank you for making my little 2 week trip back so special!! i miss you all already!! =(ooh ooh i forgot my parents came to melbourne!!! ok we need to back track a little! they came a few weeks before i left! and so they got to see where i live and see how independent i've become! haha!
my mom chilling on my paddlepop bed =)
great friends from school! not sure how much they're gonna like me anymore when they find this picture online but yea we were using the web cam to 'cam whore'(sorry i have to use the word however much i hate it!! i just can't find a good substitute!) and well two of us kinda failed after a while =) i haven't really been taking pictures with friends in school! it's pretty hard cause you don't have classes together all the time. always moving around like in uni. but i will be sure to take more from now on!
Child of God;
4:49 AM
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Hi everyone!! I'm SO SO MUCH BETTER now!! I've been meeting new people and i'm having a blast!! haha! God has been AMAZING!! He's been bringing me new friends every single day and i'm just so thankful! I've made a really good friend here in e hostel! She's really great and really easy to talk to! and we go running in e mornings! oh! and yesterday night i had a tv-ice cream night with her and another girl! we just ate alot of junk while watching The Biggest Loser and then we felt so guilty about it! haha! yea and in school i finally got e chance to meet the people in my group!! And they're fantastic people! oh oh! ok so the night before last i was chatting to Karyn online and she tells me that there's a girl named yeni in trinity and asked me if i'd met her and well i hadn't. then e next morning i went for this computer thing where only my group people would be and i didn't know anyone! AND they printed the wrong add to get to the place so i got a bit lost. then I found this girl from china named yan who was coincidentally lost and in my gp too so i walked with her! (God is so good!!) then i got to the class and i sit down with her and then another girl sits beside me a while later then we talk a bit and she tells me her name is yen and i tell her i'm from crescent and she goes oh oh! you know karyn?? SO YES! it was her yeni!! haha! and then i meet another girl in my gp who was from AC last year too!! everyday's been really tiring but fun and i'm just so so thankful! God's really assuring me that He will provide and He has been so much!! For some reason i keep thinking that surely at some point all these blessings will stop or at least decrease.. i mean God's given me so much already! But then God reminds me that His blessings will never stop flowing and He will always give us more than we expect! :) My song for this season! :
My God is so big, so strong so mighty,
My god is so good, so good to me
He's my God and He is my refuge,
He's the Rock on which I stand
He's my fortress, God He is my life,
He holds the oceans in His hands!!
There's nothing my God cannot do!
There's nothing my God cannot do! =D
God has really been getting me through all of this, providing me friends and rest and fun and I just wnt to take this time to thank EVERY single person who's been praying for me i appreciate it so much! God has blessed me so so much I can't even express it in words! my homesickness lasted for like what, one day?? that just doesn't happen!! haha! But God has been my comfort and my friend. God is good, ALL the time =)
Child of God;
7:04 PM
As requested. pics of my room! :D
Nur saffiah and I cooked dinner last night can you believe it! and it was gooooddd :) we made pasta and mashed potatoes and salad! =)
Child of God;
4:12 AM
Sunday, February 17, 2008
heyyy! so.. my first night without mom in e hostel turned out to be really sucky!! I just had nothing to do with myself cause i didn't feel like reading, the tv is always hogged by someone else and the internet was working last night! i managed to cry and talk to God though and realised that I've GOT to learn to depend on God not on my mom or myself or my friends. Though it's so much easier to type than to actually do. I had a really early night last night cause I simply had nothing to do.. tried to sleep at 930 but it was physically impossible! not that i wasn't tired or anything i was exhausted but it was so HOT. so i opened the windows, and well it didn't help much cause of e netting and plus it was so so NOISY. my room is right beside a road you see so i know exactly at what point someone is crossing the street cause of e noisy traffic lights and when a tram has come.. so basically i didn't get much sleep at all despite my 'early' night.. but well enough complaining from me! I still haven't made many friends here at e hostel, and school is beginning to be my sanctuary which is really strange. At least there everyone's willing and trying to make friends. Here, everyone already has.. okok GOOD thing : the garden here is a really good place to do my quiet time!! it's really peaceful and no one ever comes so it's easy to talk to God! IT's kinda nice to have my own room too i guess. it's small but it's mine and that's nice to know. well well i gotta start leaving for school now. i'll post more another time and let's hope it's a bit more pleasant then :P
Child of God;
1:11 PM
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
heyyy! blogging from down under :)! Yesterday was a good day so i'm quite happy now! but i'm also having to face the fact that school starts tomorrow and i'll have to start making friends all over again :P But anyway we'll get to that stuff later! Firstly, we're cold but safe. The first day we came it was really really cold so we didn't have very high hopes for this supposed summer season but then it got better.. actually started feeling hot the next few days! We really didn't do much house hunting on the weekend cause everything's closed but we had lots of options to look at so on monday we were quite overwhelmed.. I think we just weren't used to the culture here of walking cause we're just so used to hailing a cab to get to wherever we need to be if we're lost. cab fares are crazy here though so we ended up walking a whole lot when we only visited one or 2 places that day.. But we continued our hunt yesterday and PRAISE THE LORD we found one! :) It was the first one we visited that day. It's called Madre Nazarena. It's a catholic hostel (if i can call it that:P) and it's run by nuns. It's an all-girls hostel, I get my own room but I can still interact with the others cause there's a communal kitchen and toilet and the place is so CLEAN! and so orderly! the fridge has different compartments for the different rooms so you can store your own food without it getting eaten! Breakfast and dinner are provided every weekday and on the weekends we'll have to cook our own food. so i better start learning to cook cause it's just way too expensive to eat out.. each meal is around 7-9 dollars which is a whole lot of money! so anyway before we saw this place in the morning we were using directions which i'd tirelessly written down in my mom's important notebook to get there and so we eventually got to the tram stop and got off.. without the notebook! yes. i left it on the tram! and i honestly was so so shocked cause i just didn't remember what i did with it at all! I didn't even remember putting it on the seat or anything! well anyway we were both really sad and angry with me and we had to figure out a way to get to all the places we needed to be after that.. and so we took trams and walked and walked and walked only to find that the next hostel had no room and that we didn't have much energy left to keep looking. anyway we decided in the end that my losing the note book
was divine intervention! haha! ok maybe not. but I'm sure God still used it to show us that Madre Nazarena was the place He wanted me to live in. oh ya oh ya! when we were trying to find our way around without the notebook we were just getting more and more confused cause we had no idea where we were going then i realised i hadn't once prayed, and although it was mostly out of utter desperation i prayed and God answered. He led us, though on a long journey, all the way to the next hostel.. It was really God who showed us how to use the map because honestly both my mom and i are bad with maps! Anyway God's been blessing us greatly and i'm really happy about the hostel.. scared, but happy :) so i just wanna take this time to thank EVERYONE who's been praying for me for this trip and everyone who's just supported me through this 'journey' :P School's starting soon and i'm finally getting a little excited about it (yes anita akka it's true! :)) There's still a lot of things to buy and a lot of moving to do (cause we're currently staying quite far from the hostel) and a lot of people to miss :P but God's been giving me the energy to do it and I just feel so blessed! I have more to say but i gotta go get ready to go out for some breakfast now so i'll update again soon promise!! definitely more than once a month again :P love all you guys and miss you all A WHOLE LOT! have a g'day maties! (sorry i just can't help it) :D
Child of God;
1:07 PM
Monday, October 08, 2007
hello everyone!!! they're officially OVER!!!!
hahahaha! nono don't worry this is really a new post! miracle eh aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!! i'm baaaaaaaaaaccckkk!!! i know i'ts been like 5 days since my promos ended but i think it's finall hit me! aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!! i can relaaaaxxxx at last! unfortunately.. e problem with me is.. tt's harder than actually studying sometimes :D i sit in fromt onf e tv feeing horribly guilty most of e time.. like i'm wasting my time away.. which i am.. but surely i have permission to do so now! ah anyway! my promos went horribly. so horribly i hate talking about it so i'm not going to! =) i feel sooooo much better than i ever have after any exam. this one just took too much out of me. i will forever hate burger king and delifrance in holland v. kfc's quite smart.. they don't let students study there :D in this memorable miraculous blog entry i will OFFICIALLY apologise to Karyn Ang because i didn't reply her message on monday. kaarryyynnn! i'm so so sorry! hope i didn't destroy any of your plans for today! i always do this! sorry! yupp ok actually i don't have much to say! there hasn't been much happening in my life. it's just been studying studying then watching tv being a slob.. nothing much really. oh! yesterday i saw a little girl who could hypnotise lizards!!! yaaa so gross right??? she would pick up e lizard and then rub its tummy and then it would stay in whatever position she wanted it to be in. quite cool i must say but eternally yucky. yes, this is how uneventful my life's been :D i think this whole time of studying has really taught me alot of things though.. i think throughout it i was seriously relying on my strength and i just couldn't help it!!! i really own't be surprised if i don't do well.. even if i get retatined.. cause i panicked so much during e exams.. i just couldn't seem to find e peace to trust that i could rest in God. i never did it purely for Him. and that was a horrible reality i only realised later. i think it was all e competition in my class. you can't see it on e surface but everyone was taking count. i've been thinking.. is it a good thing i'm in a competitive class? since they do make me work harder although it's for e wrong reason? i think to some extent.. it's probably a good thing.. cause they do set a good benchmark.. but when it comes to e reason for trying my best.. trying to achieve 'competitive grades' it's all bad. i would constantly be thinking about how much work my classmates were doing and then do work out of worry that i might not do as well that i might not get to next year.. i basically studied in fear. which is why i was always so stressed! it's all so dumb. Looking from God's eyes.. all of it seems so so stupid. this girl trying to do it all on her own and stressing out so much over doing a few tests. tests to just see how much she knows up till now. and stressing out and rarely turning to her Creator, the source of all her strength, the only one deserving of doing it all for. stressing out so much over her future when everything's already in His hands. poor results or not, retained or not.. God's incharge of my future!! He's got it all planned out already.. a few tests just CAN'T change His amazing plan for my life!! why do i never realise all these things like before my exams??? :D mom let me continue my prayer meetings on mondays yesterday and i was just so so blessed by it! i realised i honestly missed God. I've been separating myself from God so much i just totally forgot what it felt like to pray for like an hour and just indulge in His calming presence. and i realised how important church was.. for me especially! i needed people i was held accountable to. i needed people to bring me back to God whenever i tried to run away. so i really need to keep my life in order so i can continue to keep my commitments in church.. i still can't comprehend how faithful God can be though! so so faithful! He was always with me throughout my exams..even when i refused to be with Him. He carried me through that time.. i never broke down, i never gave up.. and it's only cause of Him. He kept bringing friends to help me with this and that. There is really no one like You God! I just realised i used that exact phrase in my previous post! yea i tihnk Go'ds really been showing me His faithfulness this year. but i still can't comprehend it! ohh! i still haven't told ya'll about my tamil oral!!! ok it was ages ago i know! but you know how i SUCK at speaking in tamil.. yea but that day was amazing!!! i was just talking to myself about e topic that came out in e morning of e exam. i just couldn't thank God more! and i actually managed to 'talk' =) until the guy told me to stop!!! they onyl asked me one question!!! aaah. God is amazing, i don't know what i'd do without You my God! as a song goes.. What can i say? What could i do? But offer this heart oh God. Completely to You.
Child of God;
11:40 PM
